I just can't stand it. staying at home. i need to leave the house. its driving me nuts. thinking bout her. im not thinking straight. im not focused. my head its filled with her. everytime i think about her my heart aches. knowing she's with Ben now. Its the biggest mistake i could have ever done. this shall be the last time. i shall not repeat the mistake again. i dont want this to affect our relationship. im seriously in love with her. i really want her to be by my side all day everyday. i dont find it boring with her. except when she's having her period. and how does she feel about going out with him? does she actually think about our relatinship? she only know this guy for a few days and poof! they're on a date. with me being so STUPID! allowing her to go when i can just be firm with her. but that is not how things should be. i trust her. i truly do. but i just cant accept the fact that she actually wanna go out with him. did she think about me? you might think im jumping to conclusion. but i dont think so. RAH!!! im really stressed up. nothing is cheering me up. i think i just got to tell her straight about wad i feel and tell her to cut down on contacting him. or maybe im just to boring for her? wad is it that he have that i don? education? you cant blame me. i admit im not that smart ass. but still i know wad i wanna do in life. i've got eveything all planned out. he is undergoing his degree. so wad! i can do that in a few years time. but wad am i supposed to do. to make him stop contacting her? confront him up straight? which i don think she would like. and is not very nice to do it behind her back. i definately gotta find away. i need advices! ppl help me. ARGH! damn i hate myself for being such an idiot. screw me!
hey guys. back to update again. Its another dead day for me. rotting away. Friends are busy. Gf is out with Ben. Well i cant be so pessimistic right. gotta think positive maybe she's missing me? haha. hopefully she would that is. oh well. was msging her. n she's taking a while to reply. cant blame her guess she is busy. oh well baby. hope your having fun there. till den OUT!
Sigh. things just got a lil bad. i think we started off on a wrong note when she got back from hong kong. maybe she is still pissed with me after that incident. anyway. was out with baby on the 20th. i applied for leave so i could spent the whole day with her. everything was ok and all. anyway. i would usually msg her in the morning. saying good morning and all. and usually she would reply in the same manner. but i things just doesn't seem right. when i recieved her msg.
Baby is back! Yeah. but boo for me. cause i kinda doze off. i swear i didnt hear my phone rang except for the msg tone. i really wanna talk to her on the phone. i stayed up all day. i just happen to doze off. i mean. im human too. y did she have to get so worked up? i was seriously very sorry. i didnt do it on purpose. i really wanna talk to her. y she couldnt understand. sigh. its of noe use saying all this stuff. she wouldnt be able to see this either. im seriously very disappointed. this wasn't how i picture it to be. =( nvm shall see whether is there any improvement tmr.
Baby is coming home!!! yeah! im super excited. haha. cant wait to meet her! YES!!!! 2more days.
Recieved 2 pics from baby. sharing with me how wonderful her day was . 1 of her pic is damn funny lah. she took with Hitler. haha. oh well baby i miss you!!
Baby is in hong kong already. Sigh. Well hope she enjoys here trip there.
Wee!! What a day today. I took leave today. so i could bring my sisters and baby out. Planned to go Escape Theme park. But we're afaid it might rain. so yeah. didn't wanna take the risk so we headed down to Kallang Leisure park instead. At least its sheltered and all. Anyway baby came over to my place first. When she reached i was still shaving my head. so yeah. haha. hmm. alrite cut the story short. Left the house about 12. so the kids were hungry. so went to KFC. And guess wad? We saw Daniel n his gf at KFC. haha. the best part was they were just sitting beside us. haha. and baby got all shy and all. haha. she looks damn cute when she gives the shy look. oh well. after the meal went to kallang straight. and yeah. after 20mins. we reached! Hmm. the place was very nice and all. went up straight to the ice skate ring. but it was booked till like 5. so we headed 1 level down. played a few rounds of bowling. It was their first time bowling. as in for both my sis that is. so yeah. anyway tought them to bowl. and they learnt very fast. Amalina was good. not bad for first timer. and Aqilah too. As for me i didnt bowl for a few years already. so kinda rusty. but to my suprise i've strike most of the time. lol. Damn cool can. haha. took picture and all. the time spent with my sis and baby there was really worth it. after a few rounds we got kinda tired . so we headed down to CoffeeBean to "Chill" haha. yeah. The place there was very nice. Cause its very new. and guess wad. We saw Adrian Pang. How cool can that be. haha. He was just hanging around outside. Yeah Spent some quality time there with sis n baby. and farhan called me up. asking where am i. so told him im at kallang and he wanted to tag along. cause he didnt get to ice skate on his birthday so yeah. Anyway we went up to the skating ring without farhan first. since he'll be late. so went in get our skates. Aqil was the first to enter to ring. to my suprise she was so confident of herself. n she didnt fall the moment she went into the ring. followed by amalina. thinking she could do like aqil. but she was already having difficulty standing still. haha. so yeah. anyway everything when well. accept had a hard time teach amal how to skate and yeah. alrite. after the whole skating thing. got a lil hungry. so went to eat at mac. after our meal we decided to head for home. so yeah. thats tha event for the day. anyway. baby is going to hong kong in 2 days time. im like freaking damn sad. oh well wad to do. hope she misses me when she's there. oh well till den OUT!