Waddup waddup ppl!!! Hope you guys are doing great! Im just popping. Pretty much nth to do at the moment so yeah. Till then peeps. *Peace* (",)
4/12/2009 01:42:00 AM
Friday, April 10, 2009
Shattered Pieces
Inside my sleeve,
I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, and said
"careful it's fragile, and easily falls apart."
Extending your arms, you take the heart in your tender warm hands.
It falls into a million shattered pieces - on the floor it lands.
All you did was to see me bend down and pick up the pieces.
Sorrow and sadness in your eyes.
Apologies are not enough.
Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
You ask me not to pick up the pieces of a heart that has fallen apart.
I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart
one by one, piece by piece.
I need to put it together again, some how. some way.
Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.
Each piece of my heart has part of you.
You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life
with someone who is a thousand miles away.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a
heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.
All my tears won't keep you near
All my tears won't mend what's not here.
Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face theworld,
with a love for you that gives a glow -b ut now, my darling, you made a choice.
My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up - I need to learn to let go.
Azmi - Out!
4/10/2009 06:32:00 PM
i'm really very emotionally stressed up at this point of time. I got nowhere to seek comfort. Once i know where to look for. Now i don't. Im really turning into a girl. Nothing but a real pussy. As im typing this, tears just roll down my cheeks. I really can't stop. I am right. I am really very lost now. Please, i really need help. please. somebody. please. i'm begging. i need some comfort. i need a hug. i need a shoulder to lean on. i'm totally left with no more emotions. no more frustration. no more anger. just real sadness. i don wanna go thru this alone. waelwijdwaiojdoawijdowaidjaoijwdoiajdoiajwdoiajdoaiwjdoawjodajdpapowijap
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jowaidjwijjndjncsoejfsj. i just lost myself.
4/10/2009 02:12:00 AM
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
DECIPHER
As the title says. I'm still in the midst of figuring what's wrong with me. Even though it's actually quite clear. I know what's the main issue. And it's nothing more but me, myself. Not you, not him, not her, not they. It's my sub-consicious mind who can't seem to stop and dwell in the current situation. Easy as it may seems to others. But its hard for one to focus and rectify it since i'm the affected one. Mabel once asked me this question. What do i actually live for? What was my meaning of life before all this? I kept quiet and started pondering. Till today, the question still lingers in my head. Then Farhan came along and told me this. What i don't know, kills. Which i think it's true. Maybe that is one of reason why i'm feeling such. I have to give it up. It's not me to give up without a fight. But at the end of the day i'm still fighting a losing battle. But it's alrite, not today, not this time round. So till then.
Azmi - Out!
4/08/2009 04:53:00 PM
Reverie
Azmi - Out!
4/08/2009 12:53:00 AM
Monday, April 06, 2009
Winds of change
I swore I knew the melody. That I heard you singing. And when you smiled. You made me feel like I could sing along . But then you went and changed the words. Now my heart is empty. I'm only left with used-to-be. And once upon a song. The sky has lost it's color. The sun has turned to grey. At least that's how i feel when your away. I never knew this day would come. I never thought that i would lose you. Happiness was just the exterior. The day when you left me all alone for someone else. The world came tumbling down. I had no one to turned too. And now thanks to you. I'm losing myself.
Azmi - Out!
4/06/2009 05:00:00 PM
DISTORTED
I wouldn't lie that the thought that i once had is actually making it's come back. It is really driving me up the wall. I'm slowly becoming unsound. Mentally disturbed. I need to see a psychiatrist. I'm sorry mum, there is just so many things going ard me at this point of time. Give me time. Hopefully i'll recover.
Azmi - Out!
4/06/2009 12:15:00 AM
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Bewildering Moments
WOOHOO!!! Another night with no sleep again. Hahah. The biological clock is really going crazy. It's 0620hrs now. And i just got home. Cool or what?! And no i didnt club. When out with Rich, Sue and OMG!! Hafis, Freaking 3years man since i last saw him. haha. Oh no, thats like not the craziest part yet, im going hiking with edwin in 20mins time. We're gonna do this crazy thing later on, Bashing thru some unknown zone. Along lower pierce. Appearantly it's some SAF ground. Praying hard that we dont get caught. haha. And yeah. That's like the morning activity. Followed by abseiling later on in the afternoon with rich at some de-commed railway tracks. And later after that it will be movie! haha. yes AGAIN!!!!!! hahah. Crazy rite? lol. yeah balls. oh wait! im still not done yet. Meeting farhan, ernie and khai for dinner, followed by my place again, to perfect the baking for the "in-laws" haha. yeah. Khai's dad's b'day. Ernie is damn sweet lah. haha. Oh yeah! Anybody interested to head to sentosa on sunday? beep me aite. It's been awhile and i really need a gd TANN! I look like a fag now. hah. So that's all for now folks. So stay tuned for the next update!! Toodles!
Azmi - Out!
4/04/2009 06:19:00 AM
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Breathe
Hello world. I'm at a lost of words right now. I can't seem to express myself freely at this very moment. I'm just a little to caught up with things, but there are tell tale signs that its slowly depreciating. Which is good i feel. Slowly and calmly, i've learnt to take in deeper breathe, it's slowly fading. Fading from the mind and soul. The heart still pounds hard. But it's not longer racing. It at the right pace. What i need now is a real good sleep. So till then,
Azmi - Out!
